Monday, July 21, 2008

Thank God for Food... Amen.

Had a great revelation today when JB mentioned that this was the first time he saw me saying grace. Faced with this situation a year ago, I would probably shy away in embarassment. But now, I've been freed of this fetters. I'm not embarassed that it took me so long to be passionate about my faith. The fact that I have even undergone this transformation is a joy in itself. I guess I owe this all to SMU Christian Fellowship. My eyes were finally opened to what it means to truly live as a Christian. To be totally immersed in His ways and to simply worship him with all my life.

You know this is a rather liberating experience, for once in my life I'm finally not cumbered with what the world thinks about me now. Its' gonna be wierd not drinking after gaining a reputation like Saint Liver or not dance my Wednesdays away as the Mambo King. Its gonna be tough and it ought to be. Seriously, Christianity isn't something that we can conveniently put into our lives and be hunky dory about it. There will be trials and constant temptations from the world. In a way, without a better word of expressing it, it is the "Inconvenient Truth". But this truth is really the only truth that matters in our lives, isn't it? The ways of the world just does not conform with the ways of the Lord. Years of trying to reconcile these two ways only led me to greater distress and disastisfaction with my personal life. There isn't really much compromise huh? (:

I guess this ain't gonna be easy, but I believe that with the continual support from my family and my brothers and sisters in Christ, the journey will be a lot more smooth and pleasant. The Lord has been gracious with me thus far and I believe that his eye will always be with the sparrow, through the elements and time.

Hmm.. actually, I'll like to take this time to thank some of the people who really helped me see the light:

SMU BOSS and OnTrac: I wasn't credited any e-dollars during the summer *&@#%! , so no summer term for me and I was coerced to an internship and facilitation for StarringSMU. If not for the influence from Gabriel during matric day and constant prompting from JB in the office, I would not have taken the first step into Christian Fellowship Camp.
(Note: Although the school systems really drive me mad at times, God works through them once in a while (: )

JB and Gab: JB for always reminding me that there is a Christian Fellowship in school and Gabriel for just being there at the right place at the right time.

My Bros And Sisters in Christ in SMUCF: Your sharing and insights have been valuable and the fellowship we had (Saboteur Games, MOODS method acting and endless high octane jokes etc.) are some of the best moments I had in my life.

My Men Small Group: Haha.. This might look wierd to other people, but for those that understand, this is for you. Thank you for the book sharings through the months. I've really come to understand the nuances of being a true Man of God.

Last but not least: My family: Thanks for always being there for me. Although I've been distant at times, your importance to me has never waned. When I had that long talk with Mum and Dad about my own revelation after the camp, it was really one of the most precious times I ever had. Two hours of talking, just the three of us, talking about the wonders of His Love.

So where do I go from here.... I guess with God as my Guide, I can't possibly go wrong from here on.. (:

Posted by Veltan at 2:14 AM